I wrote this on our way home from Virginia, where I learned again to release my control over my life and give it back to God. From recent traumas I had picked back up what I had laid down because of fear. I struggled with myself and God because I lost so much and the thought of letting more go was hard for me to swallow. Before this trip I had been giving Him control again little by little and hoping He would give me mercy. I am so glad He is rich in it because I was struggling so hard with my flesh. But one night on this trip the battle ended and I once again rested in familiar waters. There will be moments like these in our lives. It is important to understand that you are human and will frequently go through trials that may test your faith greatly. You may have to re do some things you’ve already done. But don’t ever think these are setbacks in your faith. For some seasons there may be some familiar bridges we have to cross again, but once you cross them they lead to another place you never were before.

Psalms of My Heart #3

No desire is more greater

Than to be at the shores you call me to

No hunger is more fiercer

Than to be able to climb the mountains where I can hear You

Yes this is where my heart sleeps

Where I lay it all before You

When the sea moves back to the deep

I will sink and crash into You

When I am surrounded by hills in the valley

I will not shake for I choose to see

Only You can make something that beautiful in me

I’m moving from what was

And now I’m accepting what is

I haven’t always listened

But now Lord I am all ears

I have walked far

This journey has been so long

But no matter where I go

No matter what I see

Your home is always where I belong

J.S Giles