I Know How Hard You Try, Happy Mother’s Day

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Dear Mama,

Mother’s day is the time we celebrate you. Every year you are showered with love and gifts and I wonder if you need more than just one day to be appreciated. Maybe more phone calls are your wish? Or a unexpected helping hand? Or just a chat with tea? No gift can be greater than the presences of your once tiny sweeties. My little’s are still little. They shower me with kisses and brighten my days with smiles I don’t always have to ask for. They run up to hug me out of the sheer joy of being with me. And even when I mess up, tomorrow they still love me. But some of your littles are now grown and away. On holidays you wait eagerly to see their faces. And your heart flips with joy when they receive the peck on the cheek that you’ve been waiting to give for a year long. I see you mama. I see you in every woman that I stop to chat with when she just needs an ear to hear her and a young girl to teach. Sometimes she’s she so worn out after her family has come down for just one night to enjoy her gift of making everything marvelous. After a full day she is left to clean up the mess in a once again empty home.

My heart goes out to you. I pray your children in righteousness return, just to give you a deep warm hug and sing thank you and serve you for once. I want you to know that there is a God who sees you everyday. You’ll never go unnoticed. And beautiful woman you are NEVER really alone. I heard Him once say “I see you and I know how hard you try.” He knows you too even your days that have not come and the ones that have gone by. Just know that in Him you can have rest and true appreciation. I hear you and see you all the time and if we ever meet I hope to bless you so you know that you are loved, seen, heard and known.

Have a Wonderful Mother’s Day

xoxoxo

Johnnatta Giles

Prayer & Message For Those Who May Be Suffering Alone

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I hope your new year has been a whole lot better than the previous year has been. Many things are happening in our society and I feel led to speak on some of those things through the Holy Spirit in me. So I will be sharing my videos again here with you guys for anyone who want to watch, pray, and discuss these topics on my channel.

The news of Cheslie Kryst led me to making this video to all of you who may be going through something silently and alone. This could have been my headline when I was 20 years old. I just want you all to know your never alone. At the end I take a moment to pray.

My heart goes out to her grieving family and I am praying for them. WordPress no longer supports video embedding unless you pay for it. So you will have to click the photo to watch the video on Rumble. Have a great weekend!

Loving all of Me

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Not too long ago I turned 33. WHOO HOO! I spent my time reflecting, breathing and being alone with my family in my favorite place, Gatlinburg Tennessee. Today I found this draft that I started a year ago but it never was finished. But sometimes it’s just not the right time. Today I finished it and I want to share it with you.

Loving All Of Me

The night has ended and as I go about my routine getting ready for bed and doing last minute chores the silence of the night has got me thinking. In the middle of a conversation with the Lord while hanging up my clothes, in my thoughts a truth has surfaced that I never really realized until that night. I have only been on this self love journey for two weeks now but man is the Lord doing a great work in me. Sometimes the discovery of these truth inside of me bring joy and more acceptance of who I really am and other times they reveal confusing sad realities.

When I was younger I struggled with anxiety and depression because of the constant abuse. Sometimes the way I would get through those episodes I would say “I am Beautiful.” I thought if I believed I was beautiful I could love myself even though no one else did. I learned at an earlier age that words were powerful. This was my way of attempting to instill something better in myself than I was getting from those in my household. But sometimes words are just words. Without the right heart they float out empty and void. Blowing to the wind and never giving life nor darkness. For how I can believe I am beautiful but not love myself? How is it that a women can undeniable believe that she is beautiful, inside and out, but hate herself at the same time?

I stop for a second. Not sure I even know this answer as I am writing it but trusting that the Holy Spirit will give me the wisdom to my sad reality. The answers points back to the why that explains the how. Why do we believe that beauty brings self acceptance and love? Because the world tells us it does from the moment we are young. How many of us dive for the new make up trends, the new way to dress, the new way to act or carry ourselves to make us believe “I love me.”. Oh yes girl I believe it! Look at how much I love me! How many of us buy the clothes that gives pieces of our bodies away in an attempt to outwardly say I am proud of my body so I am going to show it. If you got, flaunt it!

When we have done all we can to convince ourselves that we are beautiful and those things become to us what self love is, it’s just another way of hiding the fact that both inwardly and outwardly when we truly look at ourselves we do not love what we see.

Let’s stop trying to love ourselves and start doing it. Ready set break it. Break the lies, break the masks, break through the mold that you have created and let yourself stand before God, naked and true. All that you are. And He will come by and see you there, cover you with cloth, feed you with truth and then one day, you will be able to stand and to be clothed in splendor. I’m ready for that, are you?

And when I passed by you and saw you struggling in your own blood, I said to you, ‘Live!” Yes, I said to you in your blood, “Live!” I made you thrive like a plant in the field; and you grew, matured and became very beautiful. Your breast were formed and bare. When I passed by you again and looked upon you, indeed your time was the time of love, so I spread my wings over you and covered your nakedness. Yes I swore an oath to you and entered into a covenant with you and you became Mine says The Lord God. Then I washed you in water, yes, I thoroughly washed off your blood and I anointed you with oil. I clothed you in embroidered cloth and gave you sandals of badger skin. I clothed you in fine linen and covered you in silk. I adorned you with ornaments, put bracelets on your wrists, and a chain on your neck. And I put a jewel in your nose, earrings in your ears and a beautiful crown on your head. Thus you were adorned with gold and silver, and your clothing was of fine linen, silk, and embordered cloth. You ate pastry of fine flour, honey and oil. You were exceedingly beautiful and succeeded to royalty.

Ezekiel 16:6-13

Our self love journey starts with self acceptance not self worship. When we really face all that we are He will be there to build is back up again. From the inside out. This is my current reality. Something I am now facing but not sure when I will be able to truly say “I love me.” This is my season. To accept all of me so one day I can become the best in me.

Love Johnnatta

The Art Of Self Love

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They say you can’t love unless you first love yourself. But is that true? My first lesson to you is self love. You know, I loved my first born daughter before I loved myself, I loved my husband and married him because of that love before I loved myself and I loved God all my life while unknowingly withholding love for myself at the same time. Love is is such a mystery who can understand it? It can be given in a heart that is full of fear, anger and distrust. But that love is never whole. Whitney Houston said it best that the greatest love of all is learning how to love ourselves.  So my ladies take a moment and write down all the good and bad that you are:

  • Get quiet and alone. In the mornings, evenings , on a lunch break or any quiet time
  • Accept the written words. Even the ones you want to one day change. Because acceptance is the start of new beginnings.
  • Decide to begin to love yourself more.
  • Everyday read what you have wrote and confess them out loud.
  • Take a breath and breathe in those words. Speak honest affirmations about who you are and who you want to become. because your words are powerful. What you say and think about yourself moves mountains in you and around you.

When we begin to love ourselves again so much begins to change in us and around us. Rather we realize it or not the pit of despair, negativity and self doubt eats away at our lives leaving us void of joy and shrinks us down into depression. I have came a long way but this exercise helps me get my mind back in focus with reality when my insecurities begin to creep back in. It’s still a struggle for me years after starting my own self love journey. But it was a journey worth taking.

Much Love

Johnnatta Giles

A Bitter Sweet Birthday

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Today’s independence day is very bitter sweet. I’m not new to patriotism like so many are today. I grew up loving my country and had deep respect for our men and women in service who fight and have fought to keep it safe. I have always thanked them for their service and I still believe to this day they are our real heroes. I thank God everyday I was born on this soil. Yes even if some of my ancestors were traded here by force because this is the greatest country on this earth and no one will ever convince me otherwise. In our infancy our founding fathers knew that.  They were always trying to make changes to an imperfect society so that it could be a place of freedom for all one day. And here we are their dream realized fully free in so many ways. My generation is the most free of them all yet many of us are allowing it to be torn apart. I don’t understand the hearts of mankind sometimes.

The other day I came out to my porch and happened to look over my shoulder. I was surprised to see my flag hanging on the side of my house. Our flag has a rip in it. You can barely see it but my husband said your supposed to replace it if it does. So we put it up in the laundry room not even for one second touching the ground. We were supposed to go hunting to replace it but the flags are only now surfacing and we just forgot with everything going on in our lives. So I was surprised when I saw it hanging outside. My husband just decided to hang it up anyway. I went over to it to see if I could see the tear. Its hardly noticeable. I stood back and just looked at it. There is something powerful about that flag I can’t explain it. But for the first time in my life when I looked at that flag my heart heart. Even as I write this my tears are falling. Because just like that tear that is barely noticeable on my flag there is also a tear in this country that not enough of us is noticing. A rip that may never heal. I’m not talking about political divide. No, political division is actually what made this country great. The differing ideas and arguments created conversation and battles to change and better this country. I am talking about the spirit of our nation. There is a giant rip in the heart of it and not enough of us is trying to heal it. Its only getting worse and as many continue to ignore it our country will continue to decay. My heart is broken and its hard to celebrate with a broken heart. But as long as it is still day I will continue to love fight and pray for my country men and women. To speak out against injustice, to stand on truth and thank God for the soil my house stands on and my beautiful children run and play on. I will always love and be praying for the U.S.A.

Announcement

If you like listening to podcast while your doing things throughout your day I just started a new one called “The Unbothered Christian Podcast” It is My Father’s Symphony meets my Culture in Christ Videos from my ministry channel. I will be giving powerful inspirational short episodes every Wednesday mornings 10:00am EST. There is already a few episodes up right now! My podcast is listener supported so if you would like to donate to help me continue to grow and create here is the link: https://anchor.fm/janet-giles/support

I hope your blessed as always!

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The Opening Of Victoria’s Chest

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I truly believe that small business was one reason we thrived in this country and I wanted to be a part of not only bringing that heartbeat back but also helping women in need. My Joy In Mae Creations is getting hit hard since 2020 and although this was always a dream of mine I was scared where this may go as well. But I trust fully in the Lord and His plans for me. Instead of using the tax money to splurge, I decided to invest it in a start up business. I hear so many people complaining about the economy but I know so many that have wasted this stimulus money. I did not want to be a hypocrite and I wanted to be one of the ones who tried to help my country while also providing for my family.

So on June 4th the birthday of our heaven homed daughter Shiloh Shalom Giles, I opened Victoria’s Chest. With purpose in my heart and a hunger to build something with my daughters and give back to women, this store was born. It’s home based and run fully by me, my daughters and with the occasional help of my husband. So here it is, my dream coming true and my heart is in it everyday along with my daughters. Behind the scenes I see their excitement in preparing items for shipping and working hard with their mom. We got our first order a few days ago and they lit up with so much joy! I can’t described the love I have for this store. The proof is in the name that came from my newborn daughter Victoria and my daughter Shiloh with the Shiloh Collection. Every time I watch our first promotional video filmed with my husband the end always brings me to tears. I am so proud of myself and so proud of the work I put into this. My only hope is that God would bless it so that it can bless many women and their babies as well.

If you would like to support us we would much appreciate. We have been having a hard time getting found on social media as a prolife business so please share with your friends and family. We are adding products slowly but we already have a decent collection just to start.

Our Website is www.victoriaschest.com

Arms Full of Children: Welcome To the World Little Girl

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Since the moment I decided to have a third child after loosing my second there has been a whispering that could only be from the pit of hell. “Why would you want anymore children?” “I understand but that’s just too much kids.” “Your so brave I couldn’t do it!” These words did not come from a demon but out of the mouths of people that, if it were not for their parents they would not be here. It is those who are alive that seem to have such negative views about life. It amazes me how they can’t see the irony in this.

I am not brave. I am not a hero for wanting to have a big family. I was actually the opposite. I was not mothered or fathered. I wanted a huge family as a child but I had no idea how much the trauma of abuse and abandonment would one day affect me. Once I found out I thought to myself there is no way I could mother more than one child. How could I have the patience and with my mental illnesses, how could I do this? Once I had went through my first traumatic birth experience, I had decided I would have no more kids. I was full of fear and back then fear is what guided a lot of my life choices. But then like always the one who knows me best brought me across women who had large families. Women full of peace, love and gratitude for their children. God knows my heart and He knows that sometimes I need to see to hear and then come to understanding.

What people don’t know is that with each child I have had there is a story. A story of God’s faithfulness to me. His love for me. How He has delivered me and how He has made me. Without them my story would be different. It has been God’s will that I have these children because it has been through their conceptions, pregnancies, births and raising that He made me the woman I am still becoming. When I look at each of them I see me through them. And so when someone has the audacity to tell me or say to me selfish things about me having children, I feel bad for them.. Because it is then I realize that there is something so sad, dark and lonely that lives in them to have such negative views about children. And let me be real I am a feisty woman and sometimes it angers me. Because of the simple fact that they don’t know my story. They have no idea the pain, the heartbreak and rising from the ashes stories of each of those little children I have given birth to. They are my heart. Not one born on accident or by chance. But hand picked, chosen and named by the Father of all creation. They were created and born on purpose with purpose.

My full satisfaction was in Him and is in Him alone. And because He is so faithful to me I have never felt more victorious than I do right now from walking through this past pregnancy. The names of my daughter come from two great queens of whom I have admired for their tenacity and their resilience in their respective times. Through this sweet girl I have in so many ways become a stronger women in heart, mind and spirit and I have learned the simplicity of the love of God on a whole new level. Every year that passes He finds ways to raise me up and show me truly how fierce and amazing I really am. As a women, as a wife, as a mother and as a daughter of His.

How to Avoid Pregnancy Naturally

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At Living Woman Ministries I advocate for natural birth control. This is one of my popular videos as more and more women are trying to figure out how they can get off hormonal birth control for overall health. to achieve pregnancy and as well as avoid pregnancy. This is a simple way that I avoid pregnancy through charting. I will have more videos coming soon on this topic!

Things Are Changing and So We must Also

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With the results of the election it is oblivious that things are about to change, especially with the tech companies. The things they have done and gotten away with were just the beginning of what Christians and conservatives are about to experience online. If they were quick to delete Trump’s social media pages they WILL come after us next. So what can we do? Though I have not mentioned my experiences with Tech censorship, I will have you know that I have been dealing with it privately. My videos have been shadowed banned (mostly my pro life ones) my followers have been unsubscribed from my channel and I have watched views from my videos disappear right before me as well as comments on those videos. But I continued moving forward in what God wanted me to do despite the low viewership.

But now it’s time for me to move on. I said I would be back on My Father’s Symphony when the Lord led me to. And He has once again led me back here. The Lord provided and now I am able to update my plan so I can now upload my videos directly on this site instead of leading you to YouTube to watch them. I have big plans for this ministry and cannot let evil man stop what God has put in my heart to do. I now have a Parler account where you can find me there as well. I write there pretty frequently and update things as well on there too. That account is @livingwomanm

In these times we MUST stick together and remain in contact with each other. We must find other ways to stay connected because their plan is to separate us so they control everything you hear, see and do. This is how we fight back. Freedom is more important to me than anything else in this world. And I will remain free no matter what I have to do to make it happen. I know the Lord will provide ways for His will to be done in me no matter what giant is before me. I hope the same for you. I hope you keep fighting back, I hope you keep what’s most important in front of you. While it is still light, let us push back against the darkness.

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Love always

Johnnatta Giles

Where ALL Truth is Held

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I’m going to be honest with you guys, this is a post I was not so sure I would want to write. With the atmosphere we are in I have gotten to the point where I have grown so tired of it all. The lies the media is spreading in our country are getting so old laughter is replacing my fury. But for some reason here I am at almost 12:00am, knowing there is something I must share with anyone who may come across this page.

Shut out all the things you have heard. Come to a place of silence and remember this before you take any action in the coming month. God is truth and in Him only will you find it. I am amazed at the flip flopping of the world but then again I had to remind myself that outside of Him this is to be expected. But not from you Love. You daughter of the King, Son of the Living God! You should be rock solid among the earthquakes of the world.

The world gives you bits and pieces of truth, love and joy but they can never give you the fullness of it. That dear brother and sisters is only found fully in God alone. Only He can give you eyes that see right through the fog of manipulation and decption. And through this only can you recieve the abundance of all life itself has to offer. If you want answers don’t look any farther from the Father. It is there where what is hidden will be revealed, what is lost will be restored and what is broken will be healed.

Make no mistake the choices we make define our future individually and sometimes nationally. That goes for us all around the world. Seek God in pureness, be led by the Holy Spirit in everything you do. If you need some teaching to figure out how to be truly led by the spirit, I will point you to a book that greatly helped me in learning how to truly hear the spirit of God and live by the spirit as well. I have hopes that I will one day share that journey I have walked since childhood, but for now here is a book I highly recommend.

May God bless you and may truth reign in you through the Holy Spirit.

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