If you ever met me you would know right away that my faith is my life line. I struggled with my identity my entire young life and the only thing that remained the same was my faith. But I wanted to know deeply who I really was and also who I was as a woman. As a young girl I grew up not fully understanding how to really become a woman. Was it sexuality? Was it woman nature within me? What really made me a woman? I became a mother before I even knew the answer to that question. Prayer took the lead in my discovery and the Word brought me little understanding. It was then in my spirit I knew I would have to walk this out organically.
What Makes A Woman?
It’s not so much physiology. I couldn’t look at myself and just see what woman I was. No, I discovered it’s spirituality that really made me the woman I am and then wanted to become. In the depths of my soul what would I find there? Well, some terrifying things as I dug through the surface, but as I began to dig deeper, I found the most delicious treasures. Things hidden in me I never knew existed. There was power, strength, love, weakness and beautiful brokenness that turned out to be the most beautiful parts of the woman in me. I will most likely spend the rest of my life putting those pieces together but it is an Odyssey I am greatly enjoying the fruits of. The journey is transforming the heart of me with every breath, every year that leaves me and wisdom is growing like deep roots of a tree.
Bering a woman means being all that God created us to be. Embracing all of feminimty that’s unique and loving the body we are walking in. Allowing the Spirit to bring us to life and cultvating the very essence of our gifts in Christ. Letting our light shine and not allowing the enemy to use our gifts for our destruction. Being our best advocates instead of our own worst enemy. Lifting other women up in sisterhood but also not being afraid to speak the truth which sets them free. Leading with our men with swords in hand and when the battle comes, suit up in our armor of faith and deafeat the enemy and win the war together, This is womanhood spiritually. And every year I’m learning more and more.
Without my faith I would have never discovered all the gifts in me and all the lack. I discovered the path to something fierce. Behind me He was there cheering me on and loving me.
Don’t stop at the outward, not even the surface once you truly begin your discovery. Dig deep and find the core of the trueness of woman inside of you.
In 2014 late spring my barefoot feet was standing in Kentucky’s green grass months before my second daughter was due. I held my belly as I looked out into my neighbor’s field in deep thought. My heart was hurting because of what I was hearing from other women what I was experiencing as a woman in this world. Why is it we are suffering the way that we are in this day in age? Why does it seem like we are more oppressed than ever?
Now hold up. Don’t for one second think I am joining the new age feminist train. There is a real oppression that woman are facing and it all has to do with spiritual warfare. We see it in society where doctor’s are no longer assisting us but lording over us in health care, society attacking any form of biblical womanhood, false promises to woman empowerment through the killing of our children, men claiming to be women, and women oppressing other women.
The real enemy to womanhood is sin. And so as I stood there my heart was broken and I felt a strong urge to speak. There was something better and so much more powerful than what we have in the world. And I wanted all woman to know that in Christ they can be redeemed. That although we may not be able to fully return back to pureness of Eden physically, we can spiritually.
A year later God whispered into my ear and spoke His will for me if I would let Him lead me in this. With no understanding of how He would do this through me, but willing to be used anyway I said “Here I am Lord.” To stand in the gap in this day in age is dangerous but my God is much more powerful than any dark forces coming against me!
Is it not time women that we stop getting pieces of the pie? Who wants the whole thing? Who is hungry for it all? The fullness of health , wholeness and TRUE empowerment. It is found in the King of Kings. The Lion that died as a lamb, to restore you back to the Glory you had before the fall and to call you His own once again.
I created this ministry for the woman who are looking for that hope. The hope of something better. But I am here to tell you that it can’t be achieved fully without Him. I refuse to dilute or take the gospel away from what I am doing. Because no one will do what He can do for you. I want you to know the truth and it is only found in God alone. Only He can heal you from every sickness and disease. Only He can mend and care for your broken heart. Only He can set you up high and bring you into every prosperity that He promises for those who love Him. Only He can give you love for eternity.
May God be with me as I walk off this ledge no longer afraid to fall. I know who holds me up. And He is alive in me.
+ The Ministry was named after Eve for her name means “Living” We were made to be truly alive but we can only obtain life through Jesus Christ. In Him we find what real womanhood is.
+ Inspiration and empowerment are the focal points of this Ministry. The aim is to be honest and fully transparent on issues concerning women. At the moment I chronicle my struggles with conception this season in my life. The struggles of infertility is real these days and sharing my journey is my personal “I understand” to you. I advocate for fertility awareness, natural womanhood and share charting wisdom. There will be more on mental illness and spirituality to come.
+ Spiritual redemption is the center of this ministry because without it we can not achieve true healing and empowerment.
The section on this blog “I am Woman” will be now be changed to “Living woman -The Real On Womanhood.” This is where I will write and share videos as well.
This ministry is in the baby stages and I am faithfully trusting God to lead me where He wants to take it. My aim is to only do God’s will for me and to run my race with integrity and honor for my Abba, my King, my Savior.
After I had my son, whom I thought then would be my final child, I started to hunger for a deeper understanding for what womanhood in Christ really was. Keeping house, submitting to my husband and serving in my church and community, seemed to be what I found every where I searched for this wisdom. But I did all those things and yet who I was as a woman never surfaced inside of me. You see, I had no women to tell me or show me what womanhood was. All my life I longed for an older women to pass on her wisdom to me as I rapidly grew from little girl to young lady in a blink of an eye. To my dismay all the women in my life either abused me, abandoned me or just simply forgot about me.
After becoming a mother and years of healing that lead to many dilverances, I looked to the word of God. I started where a large majority of Christian women are referred to when seeking out this very wisdom, Proverbs 31:10 The Wife Of Noble Character. And although the scripture paints a beautiful description of a women whom embodies virtue, I felt that it isn’t at all what womanhood really is.
My first thought was Eve herself. When I decided to look at Eve I realized, well there’s not much to see. We don’t know nearly as much as I would love to know about both Adam and Eve. I’m nosy that way. So I reread the small part of her story over and over again. Moving onto other scripture sometimes and coming back to hers, and then one day, something captured my attention.
Whats in a name?
“Adam named his wife Eve, because she would become the mother of all living”
In Genesis 3:20 I notice the first clue about Eve. She didn’t choose her name, but Adam did. I saw the pure reasons why Adam may have given her that name. With my whole heart I believe that he saw her for more than just a partner, a helper or someone he would be intimate with, he saw her as life itself in the flesh. Her name alone must have reminded her every day of the power she held. That power was given to her graciously from her Creator. Despite her betrayal, He made her to do only what He can do and that is the power to create and give life. That humbled my heart. God gave such a magnificent piece of Himself to women what does that say about me as a woman?
Realizing this gave me an appreciation for the fact that I as a women, hold such a powerful gift that no man could ever do, the gift to give life. Not just in child bearing but in heart, body and spirit. It created instantly a pride in me I never possessed before not even after I birthed my own children. Every time I choose to love and nurture another human being on earth I am naturally able to spark life into them. The moment I speak up for the lost and choose to love the broken, life is being created, through love, with each word, and each action.
That’s why its much more natural for us to do because it’s apart of who we are! That was the moment I saw differently how I could impact my household as well. By embracing this gift in me I now know how to pray over myself and my family in times of much needed spiritual warfare. Who says we’re not super woman? Okay maybe not that one but you know what I mean.
The Breath of Life
“With the help of the Lord I have brought forth a man.” Later she gave birth to her brother Abel.
After reading this scripture in Genesis 4:1-2, I realized Eve knew who her God. She knew that He was her helper and her strength but she also knew by the birth of Abel, that God held their very life in His hands. Abel’s name has been said to mean “Breath” now I believe that’s exactly what it means. But every where I have researched it says his name was given, because like a breath he would not live long. I am not going to go into a rant on that vague speculation. But what I do know is that Eve knew how her own existence came into being.
I know good and well that child birth can give you a whole new perspective on life. It’s terrifying at worse and humbling all around. And I am sure once she went through it under the curse for the second time she knew that God is the giver of life and therefore named her son after the same Spirit that was breathed into her as well. Therefore his name most likely means “Breath” not because of a short life but because of the Life Giver.
Eve knew who her God was and that in Him, He creates life, death, darkness and light. He is able to save and He is able to destroy and there was nothing she went through that had not already passed through His hands. He’s got her back! Though Eve was a woman created to give and create life, she knew that without her God none of it would be possible. These two powerful lessons are the first I have learned about who God made me as a women.
I may have inherited a fallen flesh, but I am a Queen forevermore redeem by my Savior, restored to my former glory through the Creator.
I hold the power of life within myself and I am able to bring that life into my arms and in the world around me.
A power that creates love, unity and justice that leads to humble hearts and stories of forgiveness.
That same power allows me to be the head and never the tail. And to have full authority over everything God places into my hands.
It gives me the ability to no longer be the victim, but the warrior that fights for the freedom of others leading them to their own victory.
All of this is what Eve taught me and the Holy Spirit gave me. This is the woman that God sent his son to die on the cross so that we may be restored back to. Daughters of Zion behold your God and let Him bring you into true womanhood!
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