Dear Father,

Dear Mother,

I know it hurts. I know right now the only thing that you can think of when you rise in the light of a new day or when you fall asleep to the end of a long night is what did I do wrong? I know you heart aches thoughtought the day and your mind is searching for reason for, solutions to bring them home. To bring them back into your heart. To fix the brokenness of your relationship. You would do anything to have them with you again. And you most likely have done everything in your power to raise them well so that they could one day be free to find happiness. You protected them as much as you could to keep them from dysfunction, so they would not grow up bent toward a life of chaos. You taught them so they could one day be wiser than you ever were, hoping they would escape the wrath of God. But still they ran from safety, right toward a road of destruction.

You fed them. You clothed them. You did what Jesus called the ultimate sacrifice.  You laid down your life so that they may have a better one. Have you ever thought for a second that it very may not have been anything that you did or could ever do? Have you ever thought for a second that you are not the one to blame? There is a whisper in the wind. Will you take a moment and be still to reciieve the voice that reaches out to you?

Beloved. I know your hearts of hearts. I too endured the pain you now posses when you walked away from me time and time again. But don’t you know you are not your own? That no matter what, you and your child are both mine? I weep with you my son, my daughter. I watched them walk away and I watched your heart break. Won’t you give them to me? Let them go and then you come to me. Let me heal you. For if they do return there will be rejoicing and not bitterness. But if they do not return for you there will be healing and restoration. I will be with you and will never leave you. My love for you will never run dry and I will never forsake you. Yes my love is greater than any love you could ever encounter on earth. It pains me to see you suffer so. Not one worry will bring them back. Not one plan can change their hearts. But know this. I have a plan for you. It will lead you to rivers of life. I will fill the void in your heart that the child you bore used to fill. And though you may sit in emptiness, I will fill you with healing and love. 

They may have strayed and may have gone. Maybe on their own accord or manipulated by the lies of others. But do not dwell in the pits of despair. Do not allow shame to steal your every breath. And never feel that you have failed. For we all must be held accountable for the decisions we make. And their decision to betray you, exclude you or shun you is their own. And you must let them go. Let them go and walk into the Father’s house. And they may return to a home of forgiveness and love. But if they never return, let the Father heal you of your broken heart. So that you may continue on in His purpose for your life. Because we are all here for a reason. And as long as you are alive and still breathing. There is more for you to do, there is more for you to receive, no matter what comes and no matter what goes.

Sincerely,

A mother who understands

J.S